Tomorrow is our last day in Ethiopia. Our last day in Africa. At 10 pm our plane will leave, our bodies will leave this continent, but my heart sure will stay. On a physical note, I'll probably stay up tonight, as much as I feel necessary to be very tired for that 17 hour flight west, back home. I can't wait to see my family, but I don't see how I can just leave this place. Part of me is so tired. Mentally, physically, emotionally... but another part of me is begging to stay. Begging to stay where there is so much joy, so much need, so much genuineness, and so much corruption. I do not, on any note, have this place figured out. I have see much, and yet I have seen little. I'm praying for God to show me more, because when He shows me the joy, need, genuineness, and corruption, I see Him. And that is why I am on this earth. The more I see Him, the more I recognize Him, the more I can glorify Him. I can never give Him enough. I'm so insufficient, but He accepts it, He accepts me.
My worst fear is that I'll go home and be bombarded by America from Americans and in that will forget the many angles of the face and love of Christ that I have see on this Journey. I cannot afford to go home and be the same me. I'll have to hold fast to Philippians 1:6; For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.
He is able and willing.
siriusforjesus
Monday, July 25, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Hey everyone! Hopefully, family, you are checking this. I tried many time to get on facebook to wish Bill a wonderful happy birthday, but it was obviously not successful.. so... HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILL!! All is well. We are now in Ethiopia, and I absolutely loooved Uganda. God is definitely working. He is breaking my heart for what breaks His. I love you all so much! And will see and talk to you soon at the airport! I might not be able to get on again. Love you!
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
So what's happening tomorrow?
Tomorrow I do WHAT?
So that's how I feel right now. A little disbelief that I'll be on my way to Africa in a matter of hours...
Aside from that, I can't explain how excited I am. It's my dream actually coming true. I just can't wait to pour out the love that Christ has so generously poured out on me. I can't wait to meet needs, bring joy, and most of all see and share the glory of Christ. I am seeking His face through this, and I know I will see it. I have already seen it. I'm craving more and more, and therefore I will seek it more and more.
It's ALL for His glory.
So that's how I feel right now. A little disbelief that I'll be on my way to Africa in a matter of hours...
Aside from that, I can't explain how excited I am. It's my dream actually coming true. I just can't wait to pour out the love that Christ has so generously poured out on me. I can't wait to meet needs, bring joy, and most of all see and share the glory of Christ. I am seeking His face through this, and I know I will see it. I have already seen it. I'm craving more and more, and therefore I will seek it more and more.
It's ALL for His glory.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Allowing Him to Work
I'll just start by explaining how I was able to come across this life changing opportunity that I will take part in this summer.
I guess what most of this boils down to is David Platt's book, Radical. Love it. Love. It. It is a must read. Before reading this book, I had a passion for missions particularly for poverty stricken peoples, but when I read Radical, the fire was fueled and was sure that I needed to do something, go somewhere, help someone, anyone. Part of the Radical experiment is to invest myself in people in another context. This could mean anyone, anywhere, just out of my norm.
So I was brainstorming different ideas. A mission trip? Yes, that's what this means. Who I could go with? Where could I go? When could I go? After speculating over a few different possibilities, I thought of Katie Davis. (kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com) Katie Davis, the wonderful sister in Christ that I know (but doesn't know me), that is SO responsible for the person I am today, the wonderful lady that has encouraged me and that shows incredible faith in Jesus and great love for Him. If only I could be a little like her. I thought about Amazima, the ministry that she started, I thought about my ideal place to go, there, and the possibility of them doing mission trips, I researched it, and was overcome with joy. They join with a ministry called Visiting Orphans to do mission trips. I KNOW finding this was an answered prayer. My thoughts: Oh my. This could actually mean that I might meet Katie. I MIGHT MEET KATIE!! Is this real life?
After prayer, consent, and lost of prayer, I chose the the Uganda/Ghana trip on July 14-27. This wasn't random... you see, we would be working with Amazima ministries. Basically my dream. Is this real life? Is this really happening? I think it is. I think it really is. After a lot of speculation and prayer, I wrote a support letter. This was the first level of cementing it. It was becoming a reality.
So many things seemed to go wrong, but EACH thing was almost miraculously solved. (By that I mean that God worked in ways that my little self was too shy to even consider.) One: my passport. Kind of necessary for going out of the country and into another one. So little time, summer season approaching, offices not accepting certain documents... the list seemed endless and unbearable. Of course God made a way for me to get it. So what if the first time it didn't work. Keep trying, have a little faith, and He is sure to bless. Two: online: "Uganda/Ghana trip full. No more applicants." Me: "Oh. No. Not now." This is when I realized, well... if that's full including me, me as one of the members who made it full..... then I'm going for sure!! I emailed, asked, and after an awesome reply of "Yep, you're on the list," I was as happy, but as nervous as ever. God is awesome. But of course, discouragement isn't hard to come by, and I, a lot of the time, am not wise enough to see past it. So there's the number three: Money. So much money. Numbers that are way to big for me to handle. I wrote support letters, sent out so many, and after a few weeks, when the first bit (by bit I mean a couple thousand dollars), I was no where near there. Me: "Um... this is incredibly serious. A LOT of money, I don't have it. What now?" Prayer. Duh. More prayer. DUH. So I prayed. He blessed. It seems logically impossible, but it happened. People gave and are giving, and God is blessing and opening opportunities for me to raise money. Is God not great?? I have such little faith. I was discouraged after EACH obstacle. So unsure of everything, and not trusting in Him. But He says, "That's ok for now, Becca. I'll show you just how easy this is for me. Just give a little faith, and I'll do the rest." And He did. He really really did, and He still really really is.
So now, as I am still constantly in need of His guidance, I know that I can trust more. I will trust more. He commands me to. The journey of starting a journey has been an incredible learning experience and a wonderful time growing closer to Him, knowing Him more. I've also been able to see the wonderful willingness of church family members with their support financially, their thoughts, and their prayers. He is so good. (To make the understatement of the year.)
I want to know Him more. I want to love Him more. He is all I want.
All thanks and glory to my precious King.
I guess what most of this boils down to is David Platt's book, Radical. Love it. Love. It. It is a must read. Before reading this book, I had a passion for missions particularly for poverty stricken peoples, but when I read Radical, the fire was fueled and was sure that I needed to do something, go somewhere, help someone, anyone. Part of the Radical experiment is to invest myself in people in another context. This could mean anyone, anywhere, just out of my norm.
So I was brainstorming different ideas. A mission trip? Yes, that's what this means. Who I could go with? Where could I go? When could I go? After speculating over a few different possibilities, I thought of Katie Davis. (kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com) Katie Davis, the wonderful sister in Christ that I know (but doesn't know me), that is SO responsible for the person I am today, the wonderful lady that has encouraged me and that shows incredible faith in Jesus and great love for Him. If only I could be a little like her. I thought about Amazima, the ministry that she started, I thought about my ideal place to go, there, and the possibility of them doing mission trips, I researched it, and was overcome with joy. They join with a ministry called Visiting Orphans to do mission trips. I KNOW finding this was an answered prayer. My thoughts: Oh my. This could actually mean that I might meet Katie. I MIGHT MEET KATIE!! Is this real life?
After prayer, consent, and lost of prayer, I chose the the Uganda/Ghana trip on July 14-27. This wasn't random... you see, we would be working with Amazima ministries. Basically my dream. Is this real life? Is this really happening? I think it is. I think it really is. After a lot of speculation and prayer, I wrote a support letter. This was the first level of cementing it. It was becoming a reality.
So many things seemed to go wrong, but EACH thing was almost miraculously solved. (By that I mean that God worked in ways that my little self was too shy to even consider.) One: my passport. Kind of necessary for going out of the country and into another one. So little time, summer season approaching, offices not accepting certain documents... the list seemed endless and unbearable. Of course God made a way for me to get it. So what if the first time it didn't work. Keep trying, have a little faith, and He is sure to bless. Two: online: "Uganda/Ghana trip full. No more applicants." Me: "Oh. No. Not now." This is when I realized, well... if that's full including me, me as one of the members who made it full..... then I'm going for sure!! I emailed, asked, and after an awesome reply of "Yep, you're on the list," I was as happy, but as nervous as ever. God is awesome. But of course, discouragement isn't hard to come by, and I, a lot of the time, am not wise enough to see past it. So there's the number three: Money. So much money. Numbers that are way to big for me to handle. I wrote support letters, sent out so many, and after a few weeks, when the first bit (by bit I mean a couple thousand dollars), I was no where near there. Me: "Um... this is incredibly serious. A LOT of money, I don't have it. What now?" Prayer. Duh. More prayer. DUH. So I prayed. He blessed. It seems logically impossible, but it happened. People gave and are giving, and God is blessing and opening opportunities for me to raise money. Is God not great?? I have such little faith. I was discouraged after EACH obstacle. So unsure of everything, and not trusting in Him. But He says, "That's ok for now, Becca. I'll show you just how easy this is for me. Just give a little faith, and I'll do the rest." And He did. He really really did, and He still really really is.
So now, as I am still constantly in need of His guidance, I know that I can trust more. I will trust more. He commands me to. The journey of starting a journey has been an incredible learning experience and a wonderful time growing closer to Him, knowing Him more. I've also been able to see the wonderful willingness of church family members with their support financially, their thoughts, and their prayers. He is so good. (To make the understatement of the year.)
I want to know Him more. I want to love Him more. He is all I want.
All thanks and glory to my precious King.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
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