Allowing Him to Work

I'll just start by explaining how I was able to come across this life changing opportunity that I will take part in this summer.

I guess what most of this boils down to is David Platt's book, Radical. Love it. Love. It. It is a must read. Before reading this book, I had a passion for missions particularly for poverty stricken peoples, but when I read Radical, the fire was fueled and was sure that I needed to do something, go somewhere, help someone, anyone. Part of the Radical experiment is to invest myself in people in another context. This could mean anyone, anywhere, just out of my norm.

So I was brainstorming different ideas. A mission trip? Yes, that's what this means. Who I could go with? Where could I go? When could I go? After speculating over a few different possibilities, I thought of Katie Davis. (kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com) Katie Davis, the wonderful sister in Christ that I know (but doesn't know me), that is SO responsible for the person I am today, the wonderful lady that has encouraged me and that shows incredible faith in Jesus and great love for Him. If only I could be a little like her. I thought about Amazima, the ministry that she started, I thought about my ideal place to go, there, and the possibility of them doing mission trips, I researched it, and was overcome with joy. They join with a ministry called Visiting Orphans to do mission trips. I KNOW finding this was an answered prayer. My thoughts: Oh my. This could actually mean that I might meet Katie. I MIGHT MEET KATIE!! Is this real life?

After prayer, consent, and lost of prayer, I chose the the Uganda/Ghana trip on July 14-27. This wasn't random... you see, we would be working with Amazima ministries. Basically my dream. Is this real life? Is this really happening? I think it is. I think it really is. After a lot of speculation and prayer, I wrote a support letter. This was the first level of cementing it. It was becoming a reality.

So many things seemed to go wrong, but EACH thing was almost miraculously solved. (By that I mean that God worked in ways that my little self was too shy to even consider.) One: my passport. Kind of necessary for going out of the country and into another one. So little time, summer season approaching, offices not accepting certain documents... the list seemed endless and unbearable. Of course God made a way for me to get it. So what if the first time it didn't work. Keep trying, have a little faith, and He is sure to bless. Two: online: "Uganda/Ghana trip full. No more applicants." Me: "Oh. No. Not now." This is when I realized, well... if that's full including me, me as one of the members who made it full..... then I'm going for sure!! I emailed, asked, and after an awesome reply of "Yep, you're on the list," I was as happy, but as nervous as ever. God is awesome. But of course, discouragement isn't hard to come by, and I, a lot of the time, am not wise enough to see past it. So there's the number three: Money. So much money. Numbers that are way to big for me to handle. I wrote support letters, sent out so many, and after a few weeks, when the first bit (by bit I mean a couple thousand dollars), I was no where near there. Me: "Um... this is incredibly serious. A LOT of money, I don't have it. What now?" Prayer. Duh. More prayer. DUH. So I prayed. He blessed. It seems logically impossible, but it happened. People gave and are giving, and God is blessing and opening opportunities for me to raise money. Is God not great?? I have such little faith. I was discouraged after EACH obstacle. So unsure of everything, and not trusting in Him. But He says, "That's ok for now, Becca. I'll show you just how easy this is for me. Just give a little faith, and I'll do the rest." And He did. He really really did, and He still really really is.

So now, as I am still constantly in need of His guidance, I know that I can trust more. I will trust more. He commands me to. The journey of starting a journey has been an incredible learning experience and a wonderful time growing closer to Him, knowing Him more. I've also been able to see the wonderful willingness of church family members with their support financially, their thoughts, and their prayers. He is so good. (To make the understatement of the year.)
I want to know Him more. I want to love Him more. He is all I want.

All thanks and glory to my precious King.